L o N g ... I n G

revealation

Hi, Thou, what are U doing now? How are U in somewhere far away? I miss so many thing in U so much. I miss Your smile, I miss Your spontanity, I miss Your (ah, I can’t say it. I’m unable to say it). So much, sure, belive me, I don’t lie. Do U know, hei, candle-lights, my days are feel so hard, and my nights are running on the snow of my frozen heart, since U’ve gone so far away.

Ah, did U knowing, there’s so much reason why I feel like this, why I feel so missed, why I feel so forsaken, since U’ve gone so far away, leaving all of Your friends, leaving all people U love and love U? So much reason, not so many. So, I can’t and I’ll never be able to say it one by one to U.

Ah, do U know, my yearn, so many time I’ve spent to elapsing my days and nights by doing everything I can do, wish I could erased all of my longing in every breath I’ve done. But, till this second, I can’t. And, in every denial I’d tried, always I’ve found the shadow of Yours appears so much more bright in front of me, so much more bright within my mind. May I will never do it again, sure. And it, in the end, forcing me to surrender and give up. And then, I just want to let it appears so free, and I promise myself, I’ll never disturb it, I’ll never trying to erase it again, sure.

Hei, U, someone whom Your shadow always dancing on the stage of my imaginations, do U know what I’ve been thinking till now? Seconds increased to minute, minutes assembled to be hour, hours united to be day, and day by day passing by away, in here, I’m drifting on flood of my longing, sink in depth of my dreams. Days and nights, I’ve always thinking about U.

But, sometime I ask myself, why I’m longing to U? Who I am in front of U? And, who U are in my life? Who we are, between U and me, so made me feel so longing, so forsaken, so missed, when U’ve gone so far away? Didn’t I was doing an impudent by all of my this feeling, including this longing, to U? Didn’t I’m like a frog longing to embrace the moon? Oh, I’ll never getting so enough clearly understanding about all of these. I know, in the end, these are too hard to described, to defined, and, maybe, these are undescribeable, undefineable.

U, I’m sorry if all of these seem so sentimental, so pleonastic, or maybe, so whining, for U. I just expressing anything I feel, I just reveal everything made me to be unrest and anxious, no more. I don’t know, why I have a wanting so much to meet U while it’s felt so about impossible to realize, while between U and me separated by thousands mile away, like now. Oh, I can do nothing to realize my wanting, to meet U now. May I have to waiting for, with my patience, with all of my wishes.

The last, I wish U will be fine and happy in there, always. I wish U’ll never be so sad and sorrow while U stay so far away from all people U love and love U. I wish U’ll getting and doing all Your project in there succesfully. And I wish this note will never disturb U.

Thanks, see U later …

Me, drifting on my illusionary world and illusionary words,

May 08, 2008. somenight fulfiled by stars.