Infatuated Triangle

About during two years last, my life is going mad. Three places have dominated my life: campus (including its libraries with thousands book inside have made me drowning in depth of everything foolish and non-sense named ‘ilmu pengetahuan’), boarding-house (that made me feel so far away from my parent and family and my village were made me feel so peace and silent), and internet-rental (that made my sociality reducted; made my reality has going to simulacrum or hyper-reality).

Three place, I myself named it “infatuated triangle”, have made me like a fool and stupid, sure! I am forget with so many beautiful and glorious places I used to visit — places that make me feel so much “transcendental feelings” within and deep inside: sea (especially its beach), mountains, jungles, agricultural field named sawah, rivers, and many other places that never I found now, in the town I stay. Now, everyday I just doing everything foolish and non-sense named ‘il-peng’, make my soul has going barren and unrest so much. So, sometimes I feel so bored and disgusted.

An anti-thesis >> I am longing for you, girl, waiting for you, dreaming you, hoping you, and my heart has just loving you; loving you beyond your body and face I used to see; loving you b’coz your soul and everything invisible deep inside you, so seriously and so much, sure!.. Are you ready to open your wings and your heart and then fly together with me, like a couple of white doves, sailing the sky above and looking for the heaven or paradise is hiding..?? Or we will try to getting and reaching Multiple Orgasm within our soul in every second we are thinking for, longing for, and desiring for each other — without touching each other’s body..

Arghh, my heart has yearning, yearn to you, girl.. wanting to fly with you to eternity, leaving all superficiality in this old-mad-world...

June 09, 2008, a noon after cooking ‘tumez pindang plus tahu’

— never feel enough without you..

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